So on the 31st of July 2010, I officially graduated from Animation Mentor. As I wasn’t able to attend personally, I ended up having to watch it online. Seeing people that I’ve only really known from their profile picture up on stage collecting their diplomas was quite an emotional moment, even though I wasn’t there in person. I think it’ll be a source of regret that I never made it out there.
How much of that is my own fault I don’t know at the moment. I’ve been wasting my time so much recently. So this is my statement of a change in direction and a change in attitude. Watching the graduation speech from Lee Unkrich, and hearing him talk about his own crippling fear of failure, was a bit of wake-up call for me. I am never going to achieve the things that I want, and get what I want out of life, without working for it – and being scared of failing, and so never trying, is a horrible self-fulfilling prophecy. Things that I have said in the past and not acted on. So this is my statement of getting my life turned around and headed in the direction that I want.
Firstly, I will spend my time more effectively. No more sleeping in until noon and staying awake until three in the morning noodling around on the internet. I’ll also be spending more time on the Animation Mentor site, getting involved in the forums, getting involved as a peer buddy, for at least an hour a day. There’s a book I’ve been reading recently called 59 Seconds that suggests laying out a step-by-step plan, saying this has been more successful than just visualising your perfect life (which can actually be counter-productive). That’ll be up as a post later today or tomorrow. I’ll also be using this blog more often, as a kind of public documentation of what I’ve been doing and how I’ve been spending my time. Hopefully that’ll be another thing that’ll keep me on the straight and narrow.
I want to end this little missive with a massive congratulations to all of those who graduated from Animation Mentor on the 31st. Well done to all of you, I know just how hard it was, and a massive thank you to all of those who ever gave me feedback and kept me going. Thank you to all the mentors that got me through the last 18 month of work, especially Kenny Roy. You are all a massive inspiration to me. Finally, thank you to Shawn, Bobby and Carlos for creating AM in the first place and giving me a chance at getting the life that I want.